August 31, 2018: Living with people teaches you a lot

I've heard that oftentimes, the qualities we dislike the most in other people are the same qualities we possess and dislike about ourselves. This has been especially true for me the past few days and especially today.

I slept in because why not and then I ate some breakfast and did a little work for class. I got to run today and that was awesome and I'm really grateful that my Achilles didn't hurt. I ramped up my rehab a lot so I did a lot of exercises for my calves and Achilles before and after the run and I feel good about the fact that I'm working towards something.

My lunch was fancy today cuz I made scrambled eggs in addition to pasta. I pretty much just read and laid around for most of the day. It was really cold and cloudy today here so no tenía ganas de estar afuera (I didn't really want to be outside). I followed Randi's game though and also watched the Davidson volleyball game because they had a free stream of it! I like to follow all the sports as much as I can cuz it makes me feel like I'm still at Davidson in a way. Cross country had a race today but it didn't go too great... it's the first meet though so that's normal.

Today was just kind of dreary overall because I had to talk to my host mom about how I've been feeling lately and that conversation did not at all go how I expected it to. She has a lot going on in her personal life which I empathize with greatly, but some of that has been weighing down on me as well. I have to know my limit and know how much weight I can handle before it's too much, and I think it's just a little too much. I've come to realize that spending a lot of time with a very negative person, or a person who never admits responsibility when they're wrong, is exhausting and just not pleasant to be around. And I'm absolutely guilty of being that person at times so I'm hoping I can work on being less like that after seeing how living with it affected my own happiness. I will most likely be switching homes soon but I'm not too said about it... I see it as an opportunity that I'm lucky to have.

My dad told me on facetime that I'm in a sucky situation but I have options; some people are in worse situations and DON'T have options. I told him that while that's true, having options also brings with it having responsibility for the decisions you make. But he said that's a good power, not a bad one. My dad is such a wise man. Sure hope my words don't go to his head though... ;)

I was then surprised by a facetime call from Em Pett and that was so fun. With my little face on her screen I felt like I was really in B304 living it up with the team. Not really, but kind of. Emma was being hilarious and it was such a classic Emulia Pettinskas moment. I really can't wait to be back on campus and not take all those happy little moments for granted. If there's one thing being abroad has taught me, it is to appreciate everything.

I will now go to bed and maybe type an article for class but realistically we already know that won't happen. Peace, love, and appreciate what you have.

Song Recommendation of the Day: "Brown Eyed Girl" by Van Morrison